Merry Christmas,i'll never forget you:)

chirstmas eve, i drove all the way to KLIA ..
going to take the flight tomorrow to beijing.. ya,, Family trip.

11:50pm 我开始打给你信息
11:59pm我把信息送出给你
12:00am我收到你的信息

是我先收到你的信息还是你先收到我的信息？？？？
还是我们同时受到？？？？？？？？

呵呵^^很高兴第一时间收到你的信息，而不是别人的。
纳闷为什么你会说`hope you dun forget me' 因为 'i'll never forget you'

Merry Christmas~

第一天( Attachment programme in Ipoh Specialist Hospital)

第一天，战战兢兢地去报到。
8:40am,比预定时间迟了10分钟拉拉才到office报到，可根本没有人想要指责我的意思，因为office的书记根本姗姗来迟。同一个attachment的还有R，R也陪着枯等。

9:10am,终於有人注意到我们的存在，是个马来书记，把证件和时间表交给我们。我看了看时间表，咦？不对啊！！这跟我预期的差好远！！！院方安排拉拉每一天到不同的department去学习，这是最传统的安排，可是为了避免走马看花，消化不良，拉拉早已要求院方安排拉拉整个attachment期间都跟在一位cardiologist身边学习，而且也已取得该医生的许可，怎么还会出这么大的篓子？情急之下，拉拉外语能力特别强，叽哩哗啦的就把那马来书记唬住了，吓得她马上打电话去确认，5分钟后，我穿上白色的lab coat，如愿地被带到Dr Mah's clinic。

Dr Mah,我这5天的supervisor。40岁，国内著名的cardiologist，斯文，认真，严肃，热忱。

knock,knock...
‘come in' Dr Mah已经有病人了
我呆呆地站在Dr Mah 身边，一动也不敢动。病人出去后，Dr Mah 开始跟我交谈，拉拉真的第一次有那种手不知该往哪儿摆的感觉。
“Dr Mah, actually i dunno what should i do"lalah
“Dun worry, you just follow me , do nothing but use ur heart and 100% attention to observe"

老实说，我还是不知道我要干什么。

Dr Mah's clinic真的很大，或许是因为他的知名度吧，而且摆设很典雅，让人感觉很舒服。医生的桌子摆在正中间，右上角是一张看诊的床，有病人躺在上面时，帘子就会被拉上。很高兴的事，拉拉站了5分钟就被Dr Mah邀请进到帘子里去observe。第一个妇女，在拉拉面前把衣服拉上，内衣解开，我的心跳停了一下，毕竟这不是我所习惯的，可是拉拉很快就遗忘扭捏，这不是我该practise的坏习惯。接下来，来，Dr mah的病人完全没有中断的，真是接二连三地来看病。
10：00am Dr Mah 突然撂下一句"i'm going to ward round"然后就头也不回地走出clinic,我站在门口，不知该怎么办，直到Dr Mah突然停下来往回看，露出纳闷的表情，我才知道原来我应该跟上去，我想当时Dr Mah一定觉得拉拉好笨，糟了。
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拉拉自认行走的速度非常快，因为在学校当head prefect时训练有素，拉拉可是很引以为傲的。可是这会儿真是遇上强敌了，拉拉要憋住气，加快好几倍的速度才能跟上Dr Mah的步伐，当然还是落在后头就对了。

马爸爸万岁！！

明天，是我到医院去报到的第一天，Frankly speaking,我很紧张。

下午，决定和芊先到怡保去，老实说拉拉我已经好久没自己开车到怡保了，所以一定要先去打探地形，第一天报到就迟到就不好了，当然，顺便带陈小姐去血拼啦。
结果拉拉我真的很庆幸今天提前去查看，原本一小时半的路程，我应该花了3小时吧？总算确定明天不会迟到了，值得值得！呵呵^^不过要去找马爸爸赞助车油费了。HOHo...~

回程的时候跟马爸爸发生了这十多年来的第一次争吵，因为马爸爸误会拉拉因为贪玩所以不顾晚间驾驶的危险而在怡保待晚了，所以好大声好大声地吼着要我马上回家。嗯,伤心极了...竟然会被盖电话.... 还记得拉拉小时候在马爸爸忙着处理公务时去捣蛋，只被吼了句“不要吵！！！”就已经觉得很严重，躲在房里哭了整个下午，以为马爸爸不要小拉拉了。可想而知，被盖电话是多么地难受。
回家的路上，好多画面在脑海里闪过，我太伤心了，所以想太多了，延带出太气了，也太偏激了。我慢慢地告诉自己要控制自己的残酷，要冷静下来，每一次的冲动只会让我跌下后悔的深渊，所以我要冷静。我想当时最怕的应该是陈小姐，因为她坐在拉拉这稞炸弹的车里，是通往地狱？还是天堂？
最后，拉拉决定给自己一个解释，以及给马爸爸一个示好的机会(马爸爸还是爸爸，我不能要他道歉，也不敢要他的道歉)，我决定平安地开到家。
情况比想像中的还乐观，车还没开到一半，马爸爸的电话就来了，语气温柔得像可掐出水似的，要拉拉小心驾驶，还说马妈妈准备了好多好吃的等拉拉回家:)

这场十多年来的战争就这样温馨地落幕了。

或许你会觉得拉拉over-reacted,像个千金大小姐，乱发脾气，受不了一丁点的委屈。
拉拉要说：“不是的。”
这十多年来，都没有争吵，是因为知道马爸爸最宠拉拉，所以拉拉做错事的话马爸爸会是最伤心的，拉拉很爱马爸爸，所以不能让他老人家伤心。

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希望明天一切顺利

Another sleepless night

This is the 3rd night i lost my dreams....wth... i tried so hard to sleep. force myself to lie on the bed .HOURS. at last, i ended up sit infront my table with my chemistry book open.see... what's the time now..
how many years... why dun you set me free?
i really fedup with all the med pills... wot cafegot,sibelium,propanolol... i wish i will never know these names..
If there is a god, can we make a good deal? i give up 10 years of my life, remove migraine from me.no more drugs to deaden my pain.no more sleepless night.
It's 6:12am somebody sign in msn..woke up from a big sleep i guess..i just wish a wink of it.

无语望苍天

他妈的…今天一早醒来就要咒死陈小姐…叫你morning call竟然给我miss call!! 结果张开双眼，太好了!!7：30am注定要miss掉我的chemisrty practical(-_lll) ‘’’’’’’’ 啊…无语望苍天

i'm not a nerd

These few days..head pain like hell.
Today,do nothing.Spent the whole day on the bed.Took the medicine with 100 plus(-_''')nonono.. dun blame,this is the easiest way, cz d bottle jz beside my bed.something just flash over my mind,if migraine attack again,a hole to the hell is beside me whilst d ladder to heaven few feet away, i'll jump in the hole. i'm not a nerd, i cross my heart.
tomorrow mathematic test. Dman it.remember the fcuk? yea.. this is a gracefully way.i'm not a nerd,i swear.

my VERY FIRST FRENCH clasS

Bonjour!^^monsieurs, mademoiselles!
je m'appelle chewyeng,eve.
j'ai dix-nuit ans
je suis malaysienne.
j'habite a pangkor island.
je suis e'tudiante.
J'aime les jazz musique.
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Today,my first day in french class.d teacher poured us lots of vocabulaires in 2 hours time..
monday->sunday
january ->december
1->20
well..i can just remember some now,
february=febvier
1=un,2=deux..argh..
kinda amusing when tried to pronounce french words.haha..
neway..happy dat i manage to introduce myself in french in 2 hours time.
why learn french?well...bcz i love languages
bt why french? well, cz it's the most beautiful language.(
Francegot d most romantic men as well!haha)
ohya, jz a sec dear friends,i'm not trying to contaminate
urminds vif dis wonderful idea ok?
n...let's think of get lost in Paris.uhhuh..sounds bad?
so,FRENCH.
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pH 7 asked y i like to jotted down wot d teachers say..
well...dat means i pay 99.99% attention in class!!!
the left 0.01% ,i was yawning..hehe^^get it??

THINKING-IS-KILL

thinking-is-kill
thinking skill.. thinking-is-kill..
i really dun understand..read word by word,all familiar words..
bt when it comes to a whole passage..uh-huh.. u know Da Vinci Code?
Tom hates everyone dat lily loves.Lily loves Tom.Tom must be hate himself.
This is all wot i learned from thinking-is-kill for past 2 months.
can't imagine dat i'll b sitting for dis paper.
guess...the night before,i'll KAMIKASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Bio...another new chapter. bout DNA n RNA.. as usual, asked for preparing the contents in learning outcomes.
somebody ask.."when do u want it?"
miss Param.." i want it yesterday." lol.....it's jz simply a brilliant answer! Dun u think so?haha..^^
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it's nearly 7:00pm.. 1,2,3,4,5...goodness,11 hours.i spent nearly half a day in college. waiting for somebody to ferry me home. still how long should i wait? All i want is to take a BATH now..i SMELLs..

hate HAZE

feel sick.. cz of the haze.
Dizzy..dizzy....dizzy...everything in my life become upside-down. dizzy..dizzy..dizzy....argh..it's thinking skill class. Esthers talking dramatically as usual at d front.can't understand y she still looked so energitic. The whole classroom floaded with esther's usual r-u-vif-me and do-u-get-me. aziana moaning to me.."why the time is running so slow?" ahha.. think so bt dunno.
feel sorry for those victims under my bad mood these few days.i jz can't remain graceful in adversity.
it's really nice to recieve a lovely sms from brian which cheered me a lot.Hey guy, love u too. yea...we need love to overcome the sick feeling.Instead of giving mask, give he/she a hug too n tell he/she how much u love him. we,Human..tiny creatures dat need love to survive.
deeply belif dat everyone bcum beautiful when we draw near love.

糟了！！！

糟了！
重新摸上键盘，我的感觉只有糟透了。
与世隔绝了这么久，我都快变成原始人了，要怎么继续blog下去啊！？

讽刺啊，看回我前两年的blog,大大声说要当什么陀枪师姐的，结果真的就被抓进去关了3个月(-.-''')
枪没托成，手倒是受伤了，那笨蛋护士还把我的手包扎得像木乃伊的残骸，看起来病恹恹的，真没被她气死。 唉，好在手伤好得7788了，已不用吊着手走路。不过啊，久患一走，新伤马不停蹄地又赶来了，他妈的都怪自己倒楣，有事没事学人家去捐血，结果刚巧遇上超级菜鸟护士，竟然把针插偏了，还不止一次T.T 呜啊.....!!! 现在手臂黑黑紫紫的，看起来真的很触目惊心。

我亲爱的布落格，给我一点时间吧！等拉拉重新进化成功，拉拉会马上给你上来更新的！